Chillin Like a Villan

Thank god for tea

2004-10-28T16:09:00Z

I have the strangest sleep and eating cycles. For about 10-12 days I can live on basically no food and very little sleep. Then the other 18-20 days are spent trying to sleep my life away and eating when I'm not doing anything else. It's not me "making up" for the days I don't eat or sleep, those days, I can't get to sleep before the early hours of the morning and the thought of eating more than once, makes me sick to my stomach. Anyway, my point is that I'm currently on a need more food/sleep trend and I'm still not getting enough sleep. And so what happens, I'm exhausted in class to the point that I'm falling aleep and I think I'm getting sick. Thank god for coffee and tea. There doesn't see to be enough hours in the day for me to sleep; much less sleep and get stuff done.

But anyway- my halloween costume is almost done, I have about 2 more hours of sewing on the jacket before the party tonight. I'll post pictures tomorrow, if I can figure out how.

The guy situation is kinda odd at the moment. Ray and I decided to be just friends, maybe friends with benefits on Friday. It's fine, I was expecting it. After Taylor and Donovan in the past 6 months, I'm invincible to guys. They can't hurt me. (Angel- if you're reading this- wipe that smirk off your face.) So the odd part is, is though we're not together. Ray has come over every night since I got home Sunday, and he's spent the nnight twice. Last night he just stayed and we slept, with our clothes on and decidedly, if I can't curl up against someone, I don't want to share my bed. It's just weird. But I do like him, and like is as far as it goes. I think it could develop, but I'm not sure if I want it to. Whatever.

Che sera, sera. What will be, will be.

...oops

2004-10-20T14:24:07Z

On a happer note than what I've been posting,

Peanut Butter Crunch is the best no-milk cereal ever

Better... sort of

2004-10-11T20:53:14Z

well- he doesn't hate me which is good. And though I love him to pieces, it might just be a good idea to let go. But I love his friendship and that's a problem. He has no idea how much his presence calms me. But what can I do? I've never been one to force myself upon people; if they don't want me there, I don't want to be there. With him, it take some amount of aggression, which he calls effort, to be a part of his life. I've always taken the, you'll tell me if you want me to know route, while he's all about asking questions (if you don't ask, why should I tell), I always worry that this approach makes me seem nosey. and I'm not a fan of that. Oh well.

I saw Ray on campus today and asked where he's been for the past few days. "busy" is the response I got. It was the one I expected. He's had a lot of theta tau pledge stuff going on which is fine, if I was concentrating on my studies like I should be, I would be just as busy. But alas, I have no such attention span.

So, what have we learned tonight?

2004-10-10T23:46:52Z

He asked me if I was over him. I said yes. Problem is I don't think I am. At least not now, anyway. I knew, driving over to his place, that he would ask me that question. I also knew that the answer should be yes. I need to be over him, because I can't have him. Usually, I wouldn't quit on it, but he's so insistant that we're not compatible. Yes, I love him. But am I in love with him? Someone else once told me that you can't be in love with someone unless they love you. Until Friday night, I didn't even know he loved me. I knew he cared about me and he loved me as a friend, but never more than that. If I had known that, I would have fought for our love, but now I'm fighting for our friendship.

We were talking about Ray, and I told him that things would be better between us because now I wasn't always trying to get in his pants. He took it as that. I would never use him as only a booty call. It was always about so much more than that for me. It was more about the company, the talks, the tickling. Never all about the sex (though it was outstanding). I didn't know how to act around him, because I was supposed to be getting over him, and every time I got near him, I was afraid I fall back in.

I miss him so much. I miss the friendship and the laughter and the Red vs. Blue quotes and even the sighs because I don't understand something so simple, because I have to complicate everything. But most of all, I miss the understanding. ...and the hugs.

I thought about making this friends-only, but maybe some random passerby will have some input on my dilemma

elisababe @ 2004-09-23T11:31:00

2004-09-23T15:31:48Z

I cried last night, I cried a lot. I really miss a lot of people. Last night Donovan asked me if there was any better person than him for me to talk to. The answer was no. It made me cry harder. All those people that I thought would be by my side until the end of time, I barely know them anymore. The person I run to when I need to talk, has known me for barely 5 months. Actually, I didn't run to him, I was already on the phone with him when the tears started torrentially pouring down. Everything's wrong, and it's all just hit me from every direction. I can take on the world one problem at a time, but when everything is thrown at me at once, I get so overwhelmed.

So for today, I'm going to take Donovan's advice; I'm going to let him handle the world's problems for a few days, and I'm going to go out and make myself happy.

elisababe @ 2004-09-23T01:04:00

2004-09-23T05:04:30Z

I feel like shit. All I want is someone to hold me. Someone who really cares. I don't even want the sympathy rihgt now. I just want to be alone, seeing as how I can't have it any other way

HA!

2004-09-16T14:43:48Z

It's the fourth week of school, and I just pulled my first all nighter!!!

Quick non-update

2004-09-14T17:04:08Z

As much trouble as they can be, and as much as they rip apart stuff and pull things down from shelves; I really do love my kittens. They are beautiful and cozy. They make me happy.

On the other hand, whoever decided that my brain deserved to be put in at much pain as possible for that past 48 hours deserves o die, and if I ever figure out who it was, I will hunt them down and put their head in a vise and show them what I've felt like for the past days.

If Brent can update, so can I

2004-09-13T23:18:19Z

I know I haven't posted in about 6 months, but oh well. Things got busy, Russia was crazy, and right now my life is a jumbled mess of hell. Lemme think....

So a quick update of Russia for now, possibly followed by the rest of the summer, followed by an update of the first four weeks of school.

So I left for Russia May 12, after spending a few days at each of my parents house. I got there not knowing what to expect, not really knowing anyone on my trip well.
The first day we go there, we were placement tested and I ended up in the lowest group (expected because the other two groups had both had 2 years of Russian). We named ourselves the "Shortbus Crew," but somehow it got changed to the "Window Lickers" that first week. Whatever we were the cool group.

Our dorms were two to a room, and I roomed with Halley, a girl from my Russian 2 class. Our group of 20 was stretched out between five floors. You really couldn't have picked 20 more different people than who we had. It made the trip very stressful, and yet very insightful about others and about yourself. You learn a lot in conditions where you have to show ID to armed guards when you enter the campus (lovingly nicknamed the "Compound"), and on every excusion you take, the four hour bus ride is with the same people early in the morning, late at night in the middle of the day.

Classes were great we had 15 hours a week broken down into 2 hours of phonetics, 4 hours of grammar, 1 hour of practice with Jili Bili lady, and 8 hours of practice with Yelena. Yelena was awesome, a late sixties teacher, she spoke no English, which forced us to speak the language in her class. She called us her dears, and when she became frustrated with our stupidity, she would just sigh, look down, and shake her head.

We definitely learned a lot more outside of class, either in the dorms where we spoke English with the French Canadians and the the Virginia Tech kids, or out in the city where we had to speak Russian.

I broke up with Taylor a week into my trip. He called me saying that he had changed, and that he could "almost trust [me] while [I] was there." I told him that I couldn't deal with that, and broke up with him. It just wasn't worth the added stress of having a boyfriend (not just Taylor, ANY guy). while I wsa supposed to be both on vacation and studying. I met Donovan over there, he is now one of my best friends over here. His (now ex-)girlfriend, broke up with him the same night I broke up with Taylor, the difference was that she was on the trip with us. She proceeded to put him through hell sometimes with indifference, sometimes with caring then not, always with total mixed signals. He and I became best friends for the trip, he was my moral support, and I was his. We hooked up a couple times, and a couple more after we came home, but even though we have feelings for each other, we both know it won't work (he knows more than I do, but I'm learning).

I don't know what else to say about the trip Russia is a gorgeous country that I must go back and visit. I came home and had separation anxiety from my group. As much as we fought, it was always nice to have someone around at all hours of the night to chill with. I started writing a lot while I was over there, it was a way of passing time for Dnovan, Adam, and I. My writing improved greatly because of thoes two. Um, my Russian skills have improved by 800 times, but it seems to have slipped away slightly due to lack of use, but it's coming back slowly with classes.

So it's now time for dinner, if I left out anything important, or I dunno, something you wanted to know, comment and I'll fix it.

Ciao.

UF Color Guard tryouts!

2004-04-20T20:21:33Z

UF Guard Tryouts

Join the Florida Visual Ensemble!
(I know, it's a horrible name, but it's a really good time)

WHEN: May 2
TIME: 2 PM
WHERE: MUB!!!!!!

requirements : 2-3 minute routine primarily with flag (at least 1/2 of your routine), but also an added medium...this can be rifle, sabre, dance, baton, streamer, etc. Make sure to do exciting things! Keep the judges on the edge of their seats

I know the people living in the dorms have to move out the day before. I did it last year. E-mail me, we'll talk.
For more info, comment or e-mail me.

For all other band geeks:
There is an informational meeting in the Band Room Wednesday at 5

elisababe @ 2004-04-14T23:53:00

2004-04-15T03:53:50Z

I'm gonna die, my head hurts do bad

Quick food survey

2004-04-09T15:35:58Z

I'm thinking about replacing my usual granola bar snack with an energy bar. What are your favorites and how do they taste. I really don't like Power Bars, I'm trying to stay away from that dry powdery taste.
Thanks

I don't know where this came from

2004-03-12T03:30:32Z

I'm the strangest normal person that you'll ever meet.
I live life with my eyes shut, feeling my way through. sometimes you can't trust what you see, but what you feel, that is always real.
I hear what you're saying, but in the end, it's not your words that have my attention, it's the movement of your mouth.
I want you and everything else in the world. Make my dreams come true and give me everything. just because I want it.
One day I will show you I'm worth it.

Ask me later.

elisababe @ 2004-03-07T11:26:00

2004-03-07T16:26:30Z

does anyone know if my sister died? I haven't eseen her online/posting in a while

HAPPY BIRTHDAYS!

2004-02-17T14:43:47Z

BROT
Yes- I know- I'm 9 and a half hours late. I'm sorry. I still <3 you, and I hope you still <3 me... I've been sick lately. My sinuses have not started oozing out of my cheeks, but they will soon, I'm sure of it. But anyway- some memories for you.
1) Pine-Sol and the grumpy Jar Head guy. (I think his name was Willis or something) and the rancid monkeys in the lab.
2) playing football and you almost breaking my neck
3) pillows
4) hot tub merry go round
5) Pittsburgh: the basis of our friendship
6) me writing on your back in english
7) brain team
8) going all the way out to Orlando to get to our ACTs in Merrit Island
9) Lindsey's "mad sex noise"
10) me falling asleep in your bed every time I came over
Thanks for all the good times. Love ya, Kiddo, and Happy Birthday

JENN-JENN
I'm on time for your birthday, so HA! Anyway- I don't know what time your dinner is or if I'm actually supposed to come to that or are you going out later? Let me know. (I won't be offended if I'm not supposeed to come to dindin. I've got a paper due tomorrow that should keep me busy.) Since we reminisce every time we're together, I though I'd borrow you a song for your condition on this coming Friday night:

sun's goin down
in a shitty little town
where every night's always the same
i've got a 40 in my pocket
as i'm walking down the street
i'm gonna drink till i don't know my name

we'll drink all day
and drink all night
gonna drink until we puke
then we'll go and do it all again
goin out again tonight
gonna get stupid
gonna get loaded
we're gonna get fucked up tonight

sun's goin down
in a shitty little town
where every night's always the same
i've got a 40 in my pocket
as i'm walking down the street
i'm gonna drink till i don't know my name

i said we'll drink all day
and drink all night
gonna drink until we puke
then we'll go and do it all again
goin out again tonight
gonna get stupid
gonna get loaded
we're gonna get fucked up tonight

we're goin out again tonight
we're gonna get stupid
we're gonna get loaded
we're gonna get fucked up tonight

Next year's gonna suck til you get back.

Aight- now I must go to class. I love you both.

posting for everyone else's benefit

2004-02-11T19:21:10Z

yup- so I'm alive. and procrastinating doing my differentail equations homework. I'm probably just going to drop the class anyway, so why do the homework? beats me. I'll do it later... but not too later, it has to be turned in by 5. boo.
I hate my classes. all of them. see, they wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the teachers and the times. with the exception of diffEQ. that class just sucks. period. Tech writing is an easy class, but it's at 8:30 am. who wants to write at 8:30 in the morning?! really. russian is easy except the teacher nitpicks and wants homework every night. and checks it thoroughly the next day. BSC2008 is for stupid people. and the teacher in my international relations class, is obsessed with the cold war.

On a better note, I'm spending six weeks in Russia this summer, studying the language andthe culture. I'll be staying and studying at the Russian State University for the Humanities in Moscow, and we get to take a three day field trip to St. Petersburg. yay. should be interesting. I made the mistake of volunteering to book the flight over for the group. It's going to be a pain in the ass to do. I'm an idiot, I know.

Todays Carolina's birthday. I got her sandals. That way, my sandals are safe when I go home and they won't be "forgotten" because they were "lost" in the house... more specifically, her room. hehehe... I'm on to you.

Valentine's day is this weekend. I don't know what Taylor and I are doing yet. could have gone on a cruise with cara and joe, but cara didn't want to go. what a waste. So Taylor had to go pick up my gift yuesterday, and now I want to know what it is. hmph. I have to go wrap his present.

I got a job at Bonefish Grill. It's being built here next to wal*mart. and everyone knows how much I love wal*mart. yay. but it's a job and that's happy.

alright. no more free thoughts for you guys. you'll have to pay next time.

whatever... from cara's journal

2004-01-18T18:00:40Z

bold = been there
underlined = lived there
italics = born there

1) Alabama
2) Alaska
3) Arizona
4) Arkansas
5) California
6) Colorado
7) Connecticut
8) Delaware
9) Florida
10) Georgia
11) Hawaii
12) Idaho
13) Illinois
14) Indiana
15) Iowa
16) Kansas
17) Kentucky
18) Louisiana
19) Maine
20) Maryland
21) Massachusetts
22) Michigan
23) Minnesota
24) Mississippi
25) Missouri
26) Montana
27) Nebraska
28) Nevada
29) New Hampshire
30) New Jersey
31) New Mexico
32) New York
33) North Carolina
34) North Dakota
35) Ohio
36) Oklahoma
37) Oregon
38) Pennsylvania
39) Rhode Island
40) South Carolina
41) South Dakota
42) Tennessee
43) Texas
44) Utah
45) Vermont
46) Virginia
47) Washington
48) West Virginia
49) Wisconsin
50) Wyoming
51) Washington, D.C.

Questions to be answered at a later date

2004-01-12T10:56:54Z

Why is it not 6:00 yet? And why the hell am I not still asleep?!?! Boo.

JenJen- I still have something from Christmas for you. It'll make you laugh. Come get it. Or call me, we'll do lunch or Wingzone, or Pokey Stix. Whatever.

elisababe @ 2003-11-19T10:16:00

2003-11-19T15:17:50Z

So I officially don't know what's wrong with me. It's like I can't stop complaining about how I feel, but there a certain validity to all of it. I'm sore all over because this matress suck. I have to run a mile three times a week which I'm not even ALLOWED to do and it's really killing my sleep schedule; my knees are waking me up in the middle of the night and they won't let me go back to sleep. I can't sleep past 8 anyway. I feel like utter shit because I have no immune system. and (the only one that doesn't make sense) I feel really alone. ugh. I hate whining.

On a happier note. I'm am almost caught up in all my classes. (everything except for Russian and Latin, and some light reading for politics). I expect B's or higher in all of them. And my room is next to immaculate. Everyone who has seen my previous room(s) would be amazed. Thanks to Taylor who began to clean one night while I was studying. I even make my bed!!! Marching season is almost over, so I can get a job and have some money. which will make me happy as well. I really need money to go Christmas shopping this year. Though right now in order to get a job, I'd have to be available to work over the holidays, which I'm not. I'd like to go up to Pitt for three or four days, and I have the bowl game to go to. I don't know, maybe I can get a job and not go up to dad's we'll see. I don't know how anything's going to work out.

That's it for now.

elisababe @ 2003-11-13T21:36:00

2003-11-14T02:35:04Z

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. ~~Inner and physical beauty~~. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. ~~Does not care of what others think~~. Emotional. ~~Decisive~~. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. ~~Spendthrift~~. ~~Easily influenced.~~ Easily loses confidence. ~~Loves children~~.

ahahaha

2003-11-07T03:08:11Z

FLOCCINAUCINIHILIPILIFICATION!!!!

elisababe @ 2003-10-23T18:47:00

2003-10-23T22:50:22Z

I'm dying. Say what you need to. It may be you're last chance before I'm gone forever

I don't feel so hot

2003-10-23T18:01:30Z

You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal."

Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.

As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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This is me updating

2003-10-22T18:58:00Z

So, hmmm where to start.... oh well so the last two weeks have been unbelievably hectic, I'd forgotten how much time can be spent with a boyfriend, until you realize that you have spent all your time doing NOTHING AT ALL. So, yeah. the last two to three weeks have been spent one of two ways: 1) with Taylor; 2) without Taylor, studying. Yup, that's right, Elisa is actually studing for classes. wierd. But the past two weeks have been interrupted by two of the best weekends I've had in college.
The first (two fri, sat, sun ago) was spent on the bus, in New Orleans, and in Baton Rouge at the game. So the bus rides: We leave at 7:30 am, Taylor and the rest of the guys almost miss the bus, very stressed out morning. We stop at the first rest stop, I ask to switch buses, bus guy says no. Boo. second stop: Lunch at a mall in penscola. food. yay. Then we shop a little bit (at the dollar store) then we leave. two hours later...Kathelina gets a call... one of the drummers was left in Pensacola. Ugh. We get to the hotel and it's beautiful. That sucks because it's gonna be torn apart. Guard goes out to dinner "together" (read meaning separated into random groups). We end up paying about $10 for this huge bowl of jumbalaya and a drink and tip. really good compared to what some of the other girls paid. Then Bourban Street. So much fun I spent both Friday night and Saturday night there, though I was "designated sober person" Saturday. I was in charge of making sure everyone got back to the hotel okay. It was enjoyable. Lots of naked peope (not me, Taylor was protecting his boobs) and even more drunk people. We spent a good hour both nights annoying everyone else with every UF cheer and song we could think of. It was crazy, the game was crazy, the whole weekend was crazy. And exhausting. I slept most of the bus ride back, and through Latin on Monday... I still haven't unpacked.

The last weekend turned out to be a much needed break from everyone/thing. I spent the whole weekend with Taylor because his mom and grandmother were out of town, and who wants to stay in a decent size house in the country alone? So we stayed out in Newberry ande made food: Friday was steak, Satuday lunch was sausage and dinner was shrimp over linguine; everything grilled. Yummy. and then there was beer. a lot of beer. well- sort of a lot of beer. I came home with 37 bottles. 12 of which were mine, 18 were Taylor's and the other 7 belonged to miscellaneous other people. We watched the came (I was so angry I was screaming at the TV, I think I scared Taylor) and just chilled

Good times

Jennifer!!!

2003-10-01T18:32:10Z

Call me about the tix on saturday. please and thanks and when's your next play?